Starting fresh.

Today had been a good day, never felt so accomplished since ... god knows how long. I haven't been sitting down in front of the desk and start doing some 'real' work. I felt better all over again. Few days back, i gotten back my macro paper results. I've never felt so disappointed in myself, though it was just some 15% worth term test but .... i did remember studying for it but still it was a failure. And when i realized how disappointed my classmates were, I'm lost. I told myself life's been such a failure, I'm such a loser, i kept on letting people around me down. The next day was even worse, the worst day of my entire life. Not going to include the vivid details. Kept telling myself everything was just a dream - i will wake up soon. But i never did, it was real. I've never ever want to get home so badly. Tired, sleepy, was hoping to see familiar faces. The night gone past, and morning came. I'm called to go home. Mad happy and seeing mommy and brother at the gate waiting for me. Finally, i felt safe. Seen the almost evil part of life and definitely not going back to that place again. Felt so lucky to have all those that were so concerned, you know who you are! I'm starting everything anew, i know talk is cheap. But you guys just wait and see hahahahaha gooodnight. Tomorrow will be a new day : )

p/s: I think i've the BEST elder brother on mother fucking earth. Because i called him for help, he kept it from mom at first till he couldn't help me because he's in army. He sat in the station waiting for me since 8pm till the next morning which is 10am? Alone. God i don't know how he managed to but i really didn't expect it till he told me. Though you won't see this, thanks love you so much bro!