Nobody said it was easy

Close to two months since my previous update, life's been tough, tiring. The two whole months is almost all about school, meeting the best friends, meeting new people, same routines over and over again. Two more weeks to the end of school term, the road lying ahead is complete darkness. Turning 20, yet still no idea of what the future holds, no plans at all. Two more weeks to leaving for hongkong, can't fucking wait.

Valentine's is round the corner, looks like i'm gonna spend it alone whilst everyone out there has that special someone hahahaha dafuq. Have a good february everyone, love.

New Year's Eve

Just got back home from Sherlock Holmes and realised today is new year's eve. Oh well time flies so much had happened this year, felt like a roller coaster ride. I've lost a few close friends, gained a few new ones. But so glad the favourite ones still stay the same. Last night got myself pretty wasted. The last thing i remembered was sipping down the last bit of graveyard and bam i was puking along my way out to find the rest at the smoking corner at nana. My whole body felt so weak and i can't feel anything, been so long i got so wasted ugh hate my alcohol tolerance, to think that i actually thought i had improved throughout the months of non-stop partying.

I've no idea why am i still blogging when i'm so fucking exhausted hahahaha tomorrow is going to be a lonely new year's eve for me. Maybe having dinner with the family and then just head home if i've no plans #foreveralone. Goodnight everyone hope 2012 will be good? Wait...... i said that last year ._.

X'mas

This year's christmas has no festive mood at all, spending it alone until i find someone to spend with because all i want is a night away from the crowd. This christmas i wish i can have a life of lesser drama - i really cannot keep up with this lifestyle anymore and i'm tired of pleasing everyone. Goodnight, tomorrow will be better, right?

Happy endings are stories that haven't end yet.

Haven't camwhore in so fucking long and this is how i look....

SHIT.

ANYWAY... Last night hmm i meant last last night i just played 24 hours of mahjong non stop. Never eat/never sleep/never shower. Fucking sick i know right!?!?!? Went home coma for 12 hours then back to school, going hardcore!!!! Just got back from morning class and after i'm done with this post i'm going straight back under my sheets hahahaha.

Ah life haven't been going very well for me, everyday i find myself more and more distractions to get by. Quit alcohol for the time being because everytime i had it, i feel like shit, i do shit, hurt others and messed up my own life. Then after that i have to clear up my own mess and it was tiring, fucking tiring. Sigh.

Finally it has all come to an end, you don't have to care about my life anymore. We've let each other down so many times, i'm so tired. The past 2 months had been such a torture, it was the worst part of my life. We all gotta move on, why not let everything go now to see what's better ahead of us. Take care, M.

Potato

Given partying a miss tonight and actually had this crazy thought to go zirca alone but nope. It's been a peaceful wednesday night when i spend some quality time alone doing grocery shopping, snuggle beneath sheets watching movies, cooking for myself. I could get used to these, anyway i have been so independent all these while. But honestly at the end of the day, i still need someone there to ask me how's my day and someone there to let me rant about work. I have been strong at avoiding thoughts, all i need is time so please stop pushing me. I'm so forgiving and sometimes it amazed me. Basically, all i want is to avoid more drama and i don't want this to go on and will definitely make things ugly. Move on, and stop making things difficult for everyone.

I don't understand what's the song is about but it sounds so good hahaha new favourite thai song oh oh and the bottom is another one that Cheryl intro to me!!!

Blame it on september

Just got home from l4d omg been ages since i laid hands on it and still haven't lose touch hahahaha anyway was planning a mini getaway trip with the boys on the jeep, can't wait for my internship to end!!!! A short post because i got.to.go to have my supper and catch up on 2 broke girls ciaoz.

"Our relationship was beautiful just that it didn't work out.."

Better half of me

Last night was so torturous to think i even thought it was going to be a perfect sunday to end the busy week but everything went *bam*. It was the worst way to end my day. Heard every sentence she said, every word and it was so unbelievable but just had to accept everything and look fine. I just sat there and kept smoking and trying to keep still and calm. The feeling was nasty, because it was not only hurt, i was so disappointed. I didn't break down, yet thank you for giving me another reason to move on. I couldn't sleep the whole night, started packing everything that had got to do with you and moved it somewhere i can no longer see it and then got so tired i fell asleep. The next morning went to work and everything feels fine again, i'm myself again.

Vampire weekends

This weekend was quite good because i spent every single day with my homies, the three days i slept barely ten hours - i feel like a vampire.

This song relates so well to everything.

Oh can you tell, I haven't slept very well since the last time we spoke. I said, "Please understand i've been drinking again, and all i do is hope. "

Please stay.

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Hello everyone!!!! I'm finally back here doing a proper post after like what 7 months oh my god i'm so ridiculous hahahahaha anyway yup i was too busy catching up with my life and haven't had the time to even use my macbook because i hardly stay home anymore. Life had been so bad lately but made better with all the best friends around, you know who you are!!!

I'm working at Beauty Empire for my internship and it sucks, i can't wait for school to start and everything to fall back in place. Anyway here are some photos from halloween: regret that we didn't dress up, next year we definitely will do!

Oh oh! I might be having braces soon by this or next week so excited - just discussed with mom and i'm supposed to check the pricing tomorrow. I sounded so excited in this post hahahaha because i have so much things to update ok i better stop now before i lose track of time. Goodnight everyone please stay tune!!!!

I don't look forward to growing up.

Nightmares before school

One last task on hand before crawling into bed to prepare for school tomorrow.

Had hell lot of fun (obviously!?!??!!) I love the company, of course smaller group has its benefits like don't have to wait for so many people to wake up and head for breakfast together. Cigarettes there are like free, thank god for ice blast!!!! Saving money now, since school term is starting, to get ready for bangkok soon...

GOODNIGHT HAVE FUN IN SCHOOL TOMORROW KIDDOS xXx

Your love is a song

Been spending more and more time at home because you see staying out only meant mahjong, supper, stone.......stoned. Anyway just booked the tickets for genting next week wednesday, quite stoked for it since i'm heading there with a different group of friends well sort of. Cruise plans failed because i've no idea why the hell is it fully booked??? Thought cruise was already labelled as the 'boring getaway idea' by many and after further considerations genting sounds more budget since it's only 85 per pax. Cheap deal!!!

Will be back soon till then.... have a great weekend xxxxxx

Illuminati

Good morning Saturday! Haven't slept since yesterday afternoon nap and i'm getting a little sleepy by now, my eye-bags are like drooping all the way down... Anyway going to plan our mini getaway like next two weeks or something - STAR CRUISE VIRGO. I know cruises are boring but i don't care.... because maybe we can drop by Redang.

Na didn't know this place can snorkel/scuba etc. So psyched about it, going to rest my head now and maybe head to golden mile tomorrow to check the pricing. Finally something accomplished okay goodnight monstaz.

Yours truly

Great escape

They have been my escape lately, people and things that made life a little better. I don't know, recently things have all taken a downturn. It's been so suffocating trying to make things right, and i just wanna give up. Everything good seem to fade away, sometimes all we had left are unhappiness with each other and fights. So scary how things had changed...

xXx.

Belated xo

Happy belated birthday.

We had such a great time at uss and really had no time for photos. Overdose of roller-coaster rides give me extra headaches. Plus the weather that day was horrid, it was sunny, drizzling, hot scorching sun, passing rain and thunderstorm again and again. BUT OVERALL I HAD SO MUCH FUN that i can't bear to leave the place.... Battlestar was the fucking highlight of the day because everyone said the dummy actually fell out from the roller-coaster itself so i was pretty psyched about it. DEFINITELY GOING BACK FOR ROUND 2 AGAIN!

School's out babies!!!